miley cyrus is doing it...

I'm probably the worlds worst blogger. Maybe this is just a monthly thing for me. But in the time span which I haven't been blogging, a lot has changed.

For starters, Bern has taken a job as a milling machine foreman in Lafayette, LA which is about 2 1/2 hours from where we live. It's a better job, better pay, better opportunity, CRAPPY HOURS. Pretty much it has just been me, myself, and I holding down the fort. I was worried about Amber because she is a daddy's girl but she has been doing good.  This change is really hard for me for a few reasons....I have to do everything myself (boo hoo I know) but I was use to getting atleast a few minutes of leisure when Bern got home from work (hence why I haven't been blogging). I do not want to move again...in the past two years we've probably moved about 4 times for various reasons and it does get really confusing for Amber. She involved in things around here too. Also as many of my friends know, I suffer from general anxiety disorder. I can blog a whole blog about that alone but I'll get into that deep & juicy stuff later. I try to manage it myself without medication, so it is hard for Bern to be away. I honestly can't imagine what military wives have to go through, tons of respect for those women!

So what would Ami do when things get crazy? Add to the craziness by starting a gluten free diet. Why? Because Miley Cyrus is doing it. 

JUST KIDDING.

Seriously, it is a diet I've been wanting to try for a long time. I've always had stomach issues, skin issues, headaches, and anxiety. I've read tons of research about how a gluten free diet can help issues such as IBS, acne..etc. Yes, weight loss would be an added bonus but at this point I'm willing to try anything to help my anxiety which doesn't involve pills. If you don't know what gluten is, it basically is a protein found in wheat & grains.  People usually follow this diet because they have celiacs disease but now it is the latest trend in hollywood for its said health benefits.

So how has this diet been going??? I've only been gluten free for almost two weeks. I can't say I feel any better anxiety wise but I've hear it takes a month for wheat to completely leave your system. It really does limit the amount of processed foods you eat which is why I think people feel better. My skin is much clearer, yay for that. I started out weighing 130lbs, and I don't own a scale so that statement is pointless. I plan on getting one so I'll keep ya posted on that.

I'm going to give this diet a month to see if I have more of an improvement. It is really not hard to follow. More fresh foods, less carbs and processed foods. I made gluten free brownies and cookies and Amber literally ran around the house saying "THESE ARE THE BEST COOKIES EVER MAMA". I can still eat g-free and get my better crocker on. It has jacked up the grocery bill though :-x....yay for bern's new job!

Aside from all the "changes", I've been getting use to the slow pace of the town. It helps calm my nerves knowing that I don't have to rush anywhere (theres nowhere to go any ways). Somtimes  I have a hard time getting things done around the house because I have this....

....Staring me in the face. How can I not stop whatever I am doing & play with him!? Sometimes I look around and realize I have a half folded basket of laundry because I've been suckered mid-fold. Luckily Amber is at school until 2 or I'd have no time.

 I've been reading my bible, focusing in on my faith. I've learn if I ask the Lord for help and understanding He will see me through. Especially when I need help with overwhelming anxiety & understanding when I'm bitter with Bern about working away & feeling like a single parent. The pastor at service a few Sundays ago said something that meant a lot to me... he said this hypothetical..

If the Lord never did one thing again in my life, He would have already done enough.

I know the Lord is always present, but it is true. He has had His hand over me, watching over my family & my children even when I wasn't following on the right path. Because His love is unconditional and He has been with me even if I didn't notice. He loved us so much he sent His Son to give us life. :) I'm so thankful.

I'm going to end on that note ;)
Until next time, and I will get that scale lol